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Everything matters when you're young
Everything is a big deal
It matters lots what people say
And it affects the way you feel

So when the people start to talk
You get to feeling pretty down
You learn to hold your hurting in
And pull a smile from a frown

Now I'm not saying that it's right
But if you hide them pretty deep
Sometimes we only have ourselves
To trust the secrets that we keep

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Less success and

more error

Shielding weakness with

pure terror

Always has been bad

news bearers

Nothing about life warrants

it's fair

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Tread the path with

life's trials

Skip the part with

ten miles

Lace those shoes with

denials

Trim your face with

fake smiles

Life

I try to keep my depression and my life seperate..

Fishey

You're reelin in my heart (my heart)

Yeah you're reelin in my heart (my heart)

oOOOOoo

You

caught me

baby

you

ca-a-aught me

and

every time

I tried

to pull away

you pulled me closer

Yeah ah ah ah ah

I could

have begged

for you

to

let me go

but you

thought I

was a keeper

Now I

don't have

any choice

but to

stay ay ay ay  ay ay ay

so now I'm gonna

stay ay ay ay ay ay ay

cause you're reelin in my heart (my heart)

yeah you're reelin in my heart (my heart)

oOOOOoo

Poetry

You can call me a 'Poe' is you want, but this is how I vent. It feels good.

...

Oh misery

I hate to feel the way you make me feel

Misery- I'm numb

The memories

They haunt me everyday

I curse the ground I walk on

And the reality is this

These flashbacks that I'm having

These Flashbacks

Are just too god damn real

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Don't want it

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Pleeeeease Stop

They tell me

That I can make a new life and I can just forget

They tell me

Sweet misery

Time will heal my wounds

So the pain will go away

But I get sick and tired

Tired and sick

Listening to their hypocritical

Hypocrytical bull shit 

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Don't want it

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Pleeeeease stop

My Shame

My head is always hanging low so I don't bump my head

On the bottom

Rung- of the ladder

I just can't find the strength

To pull myself up yet

Fatigue is weighing in

Swinging hard

Trying to be sure I end up dead

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Don't want it

Pain pain go away, don't come back again

Pleeeeease stop

Reflection

Reward me, give to me the good things I deserve
Show me, teach me how to be content
Do not take away from me the pieces that define me
But set an example that inspires me to do better
Don't just tell me if I am wrong, debate with me evidence of the truth
Defend what is good in me, stand behind me
Tell others of my greatness and not of my weaknesses
Acknowledge that a person never intentionally harms someone they love
Never contain or restrain me, remember that I must have room to grow and space to reflect
When you can be for me what a man should be for the woman he loves
Then you will tell me that nobody is deserving of anything
That life wasn't made to be fair
People change rarely, and only on their own terms
And that you love me just because you want to

In return you are given everything that you give

Reminisce

The happy times we've shared still linger in my memories..
And I wish so hard that I could get back to those places
But every movement gets me knocked back down upon my knees
That is when I start picturing your faces

And I- Can't think of anywhere better
Where the smile I wear is for real
Can't dream of anyone better
To show me how a person should feel

Grilling- we all sat around the picnic table
When you came from behind and hugged around my shoulder
I felt the way I would if everything was stable
Everything would be alright as we were getting older

And I- can't think of anywhere better
Where the smile I wear is for real
Can't dream of anyone better
To show me how a person should feel

I went out of the picture for a while then I returned
You were right there where we parted all along
But there were still some things that I needed to learn
So now I'm laying here and thinking up this song

I still- can't think of anywhere better
Where the smile I wear is for real
Still can't dream of anyone better
Now I know how a person should feel

I'm always going to dream of us together
Especially when the sun doesn't shine
Can't dream of anyone better
Some things just get sweeter with time

Control

Words of anger, actions of fury
Repercussions of a life in hurry

Careful words, reflex controlled
Rewards to those on life have hold

Final Battles

Waking early in the night
The Sun has yet to show her light
Moon with it's army of the stars
Upholding the eternal fight

Watching though, for quite a while
The final battle brings a smile
Day Star single-handedly
Makes the brightness worth the trial

Refuge

Seeking refuge from the storm
We may take paths have never worn
And shall we pray to our dear Lord
Begging mercy from the storm

Why not then, we, ask to preserve
With thanks and praise, and love with verve
We ask of more than we deserve
But to give less gratitude- have we the nerve

A good and merciful Lord is He
If we so often bend our knee
The prayers we say will set us free
Though thanks we give is also key

American Dream

It's no real mystery to me
The people want
What they think they need

They will always want more
Than what they see
And when they have it all they won't be free
..anymore..

American Dream, you are not free
You can keep on going- without me

Because you leave your family
Alone when they're in need
And your selfish ass
makes you beg and plead
..brown-noser..

The more you want the more you'll find
The best asset you have
Is your great mind

American Dream, you are not free
You can keep on going- without me
American Dream, you make them weep
You can keep on going- without me

There are more priceless things you should search for
Living happy lives, and opening new doors
Everytime you think on greed
Take the time to plant a seed
..that's time well spent..

If you ever make it to the top
Just know it's a dead end- then you stop
And come back down to Earth..

American Dream, you are not free
You can keep on going- without me
American Dream, you make them weep
You can keep on going- without me

American Dream, you have no mercy
Hear their plea
American Dream, you make them weep
You take away their family
So you can just keep on going- without me.

The One

wonder of wonders
is love
deeply it hides in the soul
oh he's a trick
that man
who provokes it to come out
soft words, gentle words
he lies
but alas love is blind
and cannot smell
that rat
so love will entangle itself
around the spirit of another
hardly to escape this grasp
when all the knots are loosened
and the maze is conquered
when the eyes of love are opened
and the great mind understands
love is sure
and love is sure

medications

these pills

reminders of my insanity

I dumped them out

I crushed them into the ground

with my shoe

rather

control my own emotions

fight my own fight

win my own battles

in my head

the dust

was scattered all around

it stuck to everything

weighing it down

but not me

not anymore

Living

If Death wants me...

It will have to catch

me first.

My Beautiful Readers

I am so grateful to all of you for observing my poetry. It is simple, and I don't believe in editing my work. I feel it would be like trying to erase a painting. This page is very real, and it contains my deepest secrets. All of my emotions have been blotted into every poem. My tears have dropped here, and my smiles have graced each good memory. You have shared the most important pieces of my existence. So now we can have understanding. Enjoy life, and bless you all!

TRUE

You are playing this game

Rescue me. 

Make it make sense.

Revive my happy memories.

These are the only things that keep me going-

knowing that it IS there,

and if I could just reach out, and take it all back

and claim you for my own...

Yet I am weak.

I have not the strength

to pull myself to safety

I am hanging on this cliff

Reach out.

Draw me in.

Bring me away from the depths of sadness.

Hard Knocks

Mirages and shadows that taunt and tease
Oppression, and pressure upon my shoulder
The one whom my mind bears an echo of wheeze
All these conditions expanding as I'm getting older

A nauseous effect with the strokes of my face
Laughter that comes from intentional evil
I swallow my stomach when I think of this place
Loathing behavior of constant retrieval

My hell on earth of great sadness and pain
Difficulty existing with the status quo
This future unreasonable to entertain
Upon solid rock I stand, even so

 Patiently waiting for the gifts He bestows

One of my poems...

Nightmares I dream, and cause me wake

In sweat and pain and fright

I never dream a sweeter dream

Than a bad one in the light

             Nicole Dailey

Dance

I am love-sick

and I hate love

(what irony)

yet the more I hate it

the more my passion boils within me

drowning me until it spills out

permeating my spirit

encasing me in a childish bubble

of giggles

and silly little cha-cha dances

W

anger

anger at myself

and anger at everthing else

so I did what I had to do

I locked it deep inside

only to escape

when my existence depended on it

Peace

The darkness is pushing in all around

With the pressure.. my ears ring

My light is dimming

I must go, and do, and feel

before my light burns out.

I will run. I will jump. I will fly.

Leave the shadows behind me.

I will slide down every rail- twice.

Then I will gallop away on my mustang

and again I'll feel alive

mistakes

i love

i love

again i love

i hold it in

and hide away

i lie

i lie

again i lie

im with a man

so here I stay

the man

the man

again the man

that i do love

i miss today

afraid

afraid

again afraid

of being left

and being played